May 1, 2019
I turned a new page. In fact, I’m still turning it …
I wasn’t even aware of how much I had changed in the last year. How much I changed my behavior, how I stopped doing what I enjoyed, how it all came down to work. Shall we have a drink tonight – I can’t, I’m working tomorrow, I have to get some sleep. You’re going hiking this weekend – I can’t, I have to get some sleep and take a break from work (so that, somewhat rested, I can work again for five days). And so it goes round and round.
The first problems started in December. I couldn’t define that state, but I’m not right. I woke up more and more often at night and had a hard time falling asleep again. It used to happen that from 3-4 hours I couldn’t sleep at all anymore. Around Christmas I had an extended weekend along with non-working days and mergers and I felt great. I thought – I’m going to have a nice rest. But that undefined state continued. During the week I was one person, it would bloom Friday around 4pm and all Saturday, and Sunday was already giving a bit of a hint that work was near and I was falling into that weird state again.
In mid-February it got worse, I started to feel worse. Physically weak, exhausted, I walk, and it’s like I’m floating. Until I got so sick that Friday that I left work early. My head was pounding, my feeling of weakness was very pronounced, I was taking small steps and could barely walk. The doctor measured my blood pressure over 200. I was in shock. Did I get into such a state that my body had to react in this way to warn me, when I didn’t understand all those tiny subtle warnings.
It all came down to work … The job I love was slowly destroying me. Somehow imperceptibly, work took control, everything revolved around work, I don’t have the time or energy for anything else because I have to rest to get tired of working again. It’s over!! That must change if I want to preserve my health.
That’s why I’m turning a new page. I decided to resign because I hope that by changing the work environment I will again be that old Tamara who loves and enjoys working, but only works 8 hours and after that lives with full lungs. I decided to hang out more, go to shows, go on walks, walk by the sea, read books, watch series, go shopping, prepare desserts and dedicate myself to blogging. I implement my decisions a bit, I work on myself and I try to relax as much as possible.
If you recognized yourself in this introductory part, dedicate yourself more and do something good for your health every day. And now finally the recipe!
Break the biscuits into smaller pieces, put them in a plastic bag and roll over them several times with a rolling pin until they are completely crushed. Melt the butter over low heat and stir in the crushed biscuits. Spread the biscuit and butter mixture on the bottom of the cake tin lined with baking paper. Put the mold in the refrigerator. Mix the sweet cream into the whipped cream. In another bowl, briefly mix the cream cheese, sugar and vanilla extract, then add the sweet cream and mix on the lowest speed until the ingredients are combined. Divide the mixture into two equal parts. Melt the dark chocolate on a steamer and when it cools down a bit, mix it with half of the mixture. Spread the dark cream on the cooled biscuit base and return to the fridge. Melt the white chocolate on a steamer and when it cools down a bit, mix it with the rest of the mixture. Spread the white cream on the cooled dark cream and return to the fridge. Allow to cool for at least three hours before serving, and ideally leave in the fridge overnight.